I saw the movie Beautiful eternal sunshine(this name?) last year or so. This morning the scenes in the movie float on my mind. If memory of pain in brain can be deleted as data in computer, we can experience less grief. Destiny determines two persons to meet, to love and to depart from each other. There is no one to blame. But the happy memory become a knife, everytime when you open it, it leaves you a scar. Yet it's impossible to forget it but time can fade it. Only time and new love can heal that scar.

Bro once wrote this sentence on his qq signature: People don't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you. But love should be spoken out. The wall between two persons is too thick to let the silent love go through.

But it's my decision. Just hope that men should love in return for women who love them so much.

Everything passed. It's meaningless now.

I had thought this Mid-Autumn Day as usual as the passing Days in my out-of-home period. Not as I expected. Same place but left only strangers. The happy old days seemed quite distant. Fortunately flyfish came back and Lulu got time. We had all-together, eating and having fun. I missed tropical Fish. She was alone in Denmark.  
But Sadness often follows happiness. When sitting alone beside the Xinkai Lake with many people nearby, I could hardly hold my tears. Sadness, out of reason but in fact too many reasons. Just felt sad. Thanks flyfish for his campany or I would have cry out at that should-be-happy moment. The moon was full but my heart was lack of sth.
There are too many things that we cannot change. The books always tell us future is in your hand. Bullshit! Too many things out of our power. Things gone never come back.
Saw off flyfish. Out of sudden I found he pretty much like a true man, I mean, tough man. Broader shoulder, darker skim, more winkle, deeper silence. I have few chance to see him in the years to come. Maybe next time I cannot recognize him.
Everytime when I look at the pictures, tears wanna pour out of my eyes. Miss you, my past.