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Bro once wrote this sentence on his qq signature: People don't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you. But love should be spoken out. The wall between two persons is too thick to let the silent love go through.
But it's my decision. Just hope that men should love in return for women who love them so much.
Everything passed. It's meaningless now. 9月15日 A Little SadnessI had thought this Mid-Autumn Day as usual as the passing Days in my out-of-home period. Not as I expected. Same place but left only strangers. The happy old days seemed quite distant. Fortunately flyfish came back and Lulu got time. We had all-together, eating and having fun. I missed tropical Fish. She was alone in Denmark. But Sadness often follows happiness. When sitting alone beside the Xinkai Lake with many people nearby, I could hardly hold my tears. Sadness, out of reason but in fact too many reasons. Just felt sad. Thanks flyfish for his campany or I would have cry out at that should-be-happy moment. The moon was full but my heart was lack of sth. There are too many things that we cannot change. The books always tell us future is in your hand. Bullshit! Too many things out of our power. Things gone never come back. Saw off flyfish. Out of sudden I found he pretty much like a true man, I mean, tough man. Broader shoulder, darker skim, more winkle, deeper silence. I have few chance to see him in the years to come. Maybe next time I cannot recognize him. Everytime when I look at the pictures, tears wanna pour out of my eyes. Miss you, my past. 6月26日 随便写写毕业了，感觉患得患失。
貌似很多想说的话没来得及说，很多想做的事也没来得及做。
不过其实就算再给我点时间也不一定敢去说敢去做。
心里多少有点惋惜。
这个充满4年回忆的地方，虽然还会回来，但是毕竟物是人非了。我也要慢慢适应没有你们的生活。
这四年总的来说还是挺快乐的，估计以后再也没有机会那么放纵自己了。
很多人，舍不得，可是也没办法。人毕竟要长大，要离开。
偏偏自己留在在这个城市，每到一个熟悉的地方，都想起曾经的我们。
以后就慢慢融到新的圈子，我们的曾经也将藏于心底。
希望有时间常常联系，希望有机会聚聚久，希望你们知道在这个老地方还有个老朋友惦记着你们。
我也不是原地不动，两年后我也要离开这个城市，那时候我也不知道会飘到哪里。
希望不会离你们太远。
希望你们偶然也想想我。 4月16日 生日快乐在家里过农历生日，在学校过阳历生日，多幸福。
从没有想过自己会在一个简陋的小旅馆迎接自己的生日。那天跟Gurung先生谈生意谈得太晚了，没法回学校了。心里还是很不踏实，虽然和Mudull聊了很久。睡不着啊。。。
的呗的呗的呗的。。。朱朱打电话问候我，大家也祝福我，好高兴 晚上跟腐败团出去腐败，好久没吃水煮鱼了，太好吃了，吃完饭转战到M-color，脆皮蛋糕真好吃。。。 一切都很好
可是就是缺点什么。。。 平摊注意力那么多空间，msn, qq,校内，写这个又没空写那个，自己找累。没啥重要事就用不着写了，要不是用来显的东西。 4月4日 just somethingSpring again. I still remember my trip to the peachblossom bank last spring.
Countless blossoms hang on the branches, attracting many honeybees. Tender breeze, mixed with the fragrance of flowers and grass, slip into my hair.
Today the peachblossoms are smiling in the breeze just the same as one year before. But those who appreciated flowers are not here anymore. Things can change dramatically within one year. Human's mind is especially hard to measure. I even don't know myself and where my happiness lies. The other day I found a rubber band on the windmill (bought at the peachblossom bank) was broken. Suddenly I was overwhelmed by a feeling of loss. But to be frankly I've never owned something. Thus I didn't lose it, I just missed it. What if I chose another way? No one can answer. There is no if in life. I chose the way to be what I am today. It's my choice. No regret. What I can do is to walk on and seek my own happiness. Let the past float away. Never come back. Maybe one day in the future when I look into retrospect, I can still remember the joy on that day. 2月5日 吹吹风今天小雨转阴，老豆闲着没事拉我去兜风，我也很闲着没事居然提议去堤坝上兜兜风。 我们两个白痴就屁颠屁颠地开着那破摩托上堤去了。 差点没被冻死。 还是呆在屋里比较好。 太阳太吝啬了，才放了一天的晴，过年啦太阳也放假了。 在bbs上看到有人贴西湖雪景。一个多月前的杭州，虽然也是冷，不过也算绿意浓浓，现在都铺满雪了，真难为Mcdull他们当时还很盼着下雪呢。看着那些雪景，有些居然还是自己曾走过的路。天气真会捉弄人 dream好耐无更新空间了，一转眼都2008年了。没有更新既呢段时间里面发生左好多事,好似发左场梦，如果呢个梦无醒就好了。
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